Promises to Myself

I make a lot of commitments and promises to myself: I will go to bed at 9:30pm, I will get up before my DD (dear daughter), I will eat better, I will drink 90 ounces of water a day, I will do my bedtime routine every night, etc. I find that I am absolutely terrific at making those promises to myself. Often, I will sit and think them through and follow goal setting guidelines like SMART. The problem is, in practice and application, I often do not keep those promises. I have a lot of words and little action; ideas, but not applications.

Tonight, I was fed up with that. I saw myself starting down that same path that would lead me to going to bed very late. I was avoiding doing what I knew needed to be done, namely clearing the table, wiping the high chair, picking up or vacuuming the dining room and then beginning my bedtime routine. I caught myself just piddling on the computer at 7:55pm. I said to myself “NO! I’m done! I will do what I promised myself.” Fast forward exactly eighteen minutes. I was still sitting at the computer. I was disgusted with myself. “Am I not important enough for me to keep promises to?” I thought. I realized that that was a ridiculous thought! Seriously! If I make a serious promise to myself, I should consider myself important enough to keep that promise.

So, I got up and I did what I needed to do! You know, I have honestly had a really rough day, and it has even been a really rough week for me. I am emotionally and mentally exhausted. But, getting up and getting my housework finished up (which took less than 1/2 hour!) showed me two things. One, my cabinets and drawers are full. My silverware drawer was overflowing, and my plates and bowls are stacked so high. I have so much for which to be thankful. I was reminded of the verse in Ephesians 3 that talks about God being able to exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think. And I was so struck by my overflowing silverware that I just had to thank God for my exceeding and abundant amount of silverware that He has given me.

I know that is so silly, but it really changed my attitude. I kept telling God today that my attitude was just downright rotten and I needed Him to change it. Finally, at the end of the day, my attitude is different. I’m going to start my week off with a grateful heart attitude. I hope that I carry it through this week. But, also I hope that this week, I’ll get up and keep my promises to myself, because, it was keeping my promise to myself that God used give me the silverware sign.